Well it really has been a whirlwind of events since being back and getting settled. Or should I say not really settled. I can honestly say, I do not know what is next. Right now when people ask me what I'm doing, my response is "I'm just going to be Courtney for a bit." It's not a lame answer and I really mean it. I really just need some time to be myself and not have so much responsibility for a bit. So that looks like this: I will not have a specific role on base but I will help out wherever needed. I'm more than happy to do that because then I get to work with a bunch of different people.
I dislike transition time... I know I should be used to it by now since it is the most normal I know but I'm still not. It gets harder every time you do it. This time it's really hard, after seeing all my "kids" off then seeing Josh off was so hard. It hit me today when Stephen, Sophia and I went to Akaroa for the day. Akaroa is a little french town on the other side of Christchurch. It is on the ocean. It reminds me a lot of Grand Marais, MN which was amazing for today because I needed some "normal" home feeling after everyone left. The rest of the staff are leaving this weekend. It is hard this time because I got so close to all of them. It hit me today that I really do miss them and I know I will continue to and I know that we will stay in touch but in the mean time it's hard. Change is not an easy thing, in anything you do. Especially when you're dealing with people. It's important to take time to grieve the time, the people and places you were. I find that if I don't, it all bottles up and I become more harden hearted towards the new people coming in. If there is one thing that I've learned from these past 6 months is that it's hard to just be, but in the end that's all God wants.
Akaroa was a God send today. A little town with a harbor full of sailboats and a light house. I couldn't of asked for a better day.
I dislike transition time... I know I should be used to it by now since it is the most normal I know but I'm still not. It gets harder every time you do it. This time it's really hard, after seeing all my "kids" off then seeing Josh off was so hard. It hit me today when Stephen, Sophia and I went to Akaroa for the day. Akaroa is a little french town on the other side of Christchurch. It is on the ocean. It reminds me a lot of Grand Marais, MN which was amazing for today because I needed some "normal" home feeling after everyone left. The rest of the staff are leaving this weekend. It is hard this time because I got so close to all of them. It hit me today that I really do miss them and I know I will continue to and I know that we will stay in touch but in the mean time it's hard. Change is not an easy thing, in anything you do. Especially when you're dealing with people. It's important to take time to grieve the time, the people and places you were. I find that if I don't, it all bottles up and I become more harden hearted towards the new people coming in. If there is one thing that I've learned from these past 6 months is that it's hard to just be, but in the end that's all God wants.
Akaroa was a God send today. A little town with a harbor full of sailboats and a light house. I couldn't of asked for a better day.
Botanical rose garden, Christchurch.
Long-boarding in Akaroa
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