Punching. In. A. Dream.

The bittersweet between my teeth, I don't know what I'm doing exactly... Wrestling with myself and God to "move on". It's so hard... Not knowing the next step is hard, I know that change is apart of life and I'm fully stoked for what God has, it's just hard in the in-between. I am looking forward to my time in Tauranga for the summer, I know my time will be filled with laughter, beach time, catching up with old friends so-on and so forth. Looking at a few things in the current news from all around the world in the lives of many, it seems that change is in the season for not only me. I took comfort in knowing that God is moving in not only my life but in the lives of many that are currently going through BIG changes. The future is vast and full of endless possibilities. Right now I'd rather wait and see what mine holds. For the first time in my life, I am currently left with nothing to do but rest. I know I fully needed it and still need it after outreach and being on school staff, it's intense. After 3 weeks I am just Courtney a daughter. I have realized how hard it is for me to rest though! It's a challenge because I've just grown up with going going going. When you're done you just move on to the next thing life has for you, don't take a breather just go! Well dear friends we need to rest and breath to catch up with our creator! We need to enjoy where we are! I was watching the current Amazing Race with Andy and Tommy the pro snowboarders. I met Andy when he was in Queenstown last year, he is a very good violinist. Anyways watching them live life to the fullest and serving God is amazing. On and off the mountain. It reminded me that what you are passionate about is what you'll have motivation to do as well what you'll be excited to do! Talking to my good friend here, I was saying that yes I did backpackers but I think I'm more of a snowboarder just the passion and excitement they have. She asked why and my answer was that backpackers need to be re-lit and snowboarders just need to be stirred. I'm better at stirring people up. Interestingly enough it's so true. I don't know what my future holds if I'll staff another school or not at this point it's all the Lords and I'll let him decide. I'm not looking for things to do I'm just waiting to be told where to go and what to do. So the key is to wait, listen then do. The first two are the hardest because we live in a world of go. We don't have the patience or grace for ourselves to wait and see. It's really shaken me up. I've so enjoyed it though. It will be interesting to see what happens this summer. :) I'm excited and nervous at the same time! He is good no matter what or where!
Bless you all in the winter season, I will enjoy summer for you all! :)
-C