There's this guy...

So There's this guy here in New Zealand that I've been falling more in love with each day I spend time with him. Yesterday I gave my entire self to him! It was amazing! The feeling was so indescribable, just like him. His name is Jesus. This weeek we have been talking about Lordship with Mark Parker as a speaker. He is the most amazingly real speaker I have ever listened to. The Lord uses him in such a way to get through to people. He really tells it like it is. He has a very distinctive way of speaking, it's more of screaming or yelling sometimes, but in a loving way, put it this way I didn't fall asleep this week. Some things that really spoke to me though were:

• God is real!
• With who you hang out with, is who you'll become!
• Be the right person for people to meet!
• Jesus includes us in his life, we don't include him in ours!
• If you're hungry for yourself you'll get nothing, if  you're hungry for God you'll get a lot!
• Women are kean to go, men are a little slow!
• A couragous person feels the fear but does it anyway!
• Boast about God not yourself!
• Earth is the tabernacle where God wants to dwell!
• We are made alive in Christ!
• Hangout with God, just be with him!
• Nothing will separate you from the love of God!
• We try to save ourselves, God needs to save us!
• Drop the expectations and Love people!
• Jesus is Unchanging!
• Your picture of God is what you are!
• Obedience to God is better than Sacrafice!
• Follow the great commandment before the great commission!
• The beginning of the race is easy, we need to finish well!
• We are the temple, we need to bear fruit!
• He must become Great, I must become Less!
• We are the products of the decisions we make!
• We know how to die for him but we need to know how to live for him!
• Be childlike not childish in your faith!
• Don't be a wilderness dweller!
• He invades us and we become what we're made to be!
• Salvation ain't man made!

The ones I made bold are the ones that really impacted my life this week! My life would suck without God. I'll share my testimony from yesterday but to give you a picture of what happened yesterday is this. We had base worship at 9am with everyone, then we went into the classroom where the cross was in the middle and everything was covered with a white sheet and the blinds were pulled down on the windows. It seemed like a very nice and peaceful place to be at. We started by playing music and worshiping God and giving thanks to him. The whole point was to have the anointing of the Holy Spirit in us. We had a fellowship offering and a burnt offering. For the fellowship offering you had to bring what you had to the cross infront of everyone just confessing what your are bringing to God and laying down before him. I brought my sunglasses as a symbol for me always hiding emotion and for me hiding from people I didn't want to talk to or see. I was crying because I am very good at hiding my emotion but I know that's not what God wants, so the glasses are off. For the burnt offering I gave up my anger towards people like my friends and family. I proclaimed it in Jesus' name that "I'VE HAD ENOUGH!" it felt so good although I was crying I realized how much I've hurt people and need to ask frogiveness and give forgiveness. The whole day was amazing! He had things that guys and girls had to do as separate groups, but it was an individual battle for you. The guys linked arms and had to stand in the middle and praise God from the depths of their hearts, then fight through the linked arms to get out. The girls had a different thing because it is easier for girls to praise God from the bottom of their heart. So all the guys layed down on their stomachs making a path to the cross in the middle of the room and we had to walk on their backs praising God every step of the way. I was the second one to go, when I got up there I was excited but Mark looked at me and said "Courtney, oh, Courtney, you know I've been watching you all week, and you know what you're cute! (everyone laughs and says aww) I mean it!, you really love God and he really loves you, he shows it through you!" Right then I started crying and when I stepped on the guys backs I was crying every step of the way. I only stummbled in the beginning, But that symbolizes my relationship with God and how it took me a while to trust in him. But I do now. He is my everything.
Alright so my testimony is:
Everytime I would picture myself with God or go to that special place in my mind of where I could feel him was the wilderness. I would just sit in the wilderness and listen to the trees move for hours. This week God pulled me out of the wilderness and brought me to sit at a bench on the beach, the sun is shining, I'm the only one there, the waves are crashing on the shore, I'm not wearing sunglasses though, remember the glasses are off! So yesterday morning God put my feet in the water and it was warm calm water, then after all the offerings and after people praying for me, I was in where the waves are, in deeper water my feet were still touching the ground, but a wave came over my head and it was the Holy Spirit ripping off my veil that I've had on for so long and he washed me of everything and God said that I am his and He is Mine! It was one of the most powerful things I've ever experienced! I am in the water. Later on after things calmed down and we were still worshiping I felt as though the water settled and I was standing on top of the water looking at God. This is the picture I have in my heart, The picture of God that I live out everyday. It's a lifestyle not just an hour or two a week at church or an organization. You have to live it everyday!
Read the book of Hebrews to see God's love for us and to see what his plan is for us! I hope this encourages you to go out and live for God everyday! Make him the Lord of your life everyday! Live him out, Do the things he wants you to even if it means the most ridiculous thing like screaming in a harbor or lying in the middle of a road! When you do what he wants, you will be blessed so much! Humility is a key to God's heart! God Bless!