Isaiah 49

Isaiah 49

1-7:

"Listen to me, you islands; hear this you distant nations: Before I was born the Lord called me ; from my birth he has made mention of my name. He made my mouth like a sharpened sword, in the shadow of his hand he hid me; he made me into a polished arrow and concealed me in his quiver. He said to me, 'You are my servant, Israel, in whom I will display my splendor.' But I said, 'I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing. Yet what is due me is in the Lord's hand, and my reward is with my God.' And now the Lord says he who formed me in the womb to be his servant to bring Jacob back to him and gather Israel to himself for I am honored in the eyes of the Lord and my God has been my strength he says: 'It is too small a thing for you to be my servant to restore the tribes of Jacob and bring back those of Israel I have kept. I will also make you a light for the Gentiles, that you may bring my salvation to the ends of the earth.' This is what the Lord says the Redeemer and Holy One of Israel to him who was despised and abhorred by the nation, to the servant of rulers: 'Kings will see you and rise up, princes will see and bow down, because the Lord who is faithful the Holy One of Israel, who has chosen you."

 This verse has been my comfort the past few days. I've reread it a lot through out the days. My bible automatically opens to the page. Along with other pages. Anyways, I've always loved this passage because of how it says I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing, it reminds me that you can be a servant of the Lord but it has to be his strength through you! Along with listening to a song where the lyrics are "Control yourself, take only what you need from it" I guess I've come to the conclusion that whatever happens happens. I know if I try to interfere with the Lord's plans he'll call my bluff. Practicing self control and sitting and waiting are pretty hard things to learn. This place of sitting and being is a hard place to be in. I caught myself the other day when I was like: "Right, so what should I do now?" So I started looking all these things up that I could do as in working or studying, rather than go to the beach for a day is what I mean. Anyways I stopped and felt the Lord say, I have you in this place of being not doing. I started laughing because when I try to take control, I get real stressed and worried. I'd rather not live like that, worried about everything around me or at home.... Stay flexible as my grandpa says, along with why not...I may not know where I'm headed or what the next few months hold but that's ok. Living intentionally with the people around me along with the people I meet is my style. I love meeting people from everywhere! It's fun!  so why not?